"Waiting to Exhale"
Sample pictures -- NOT REAL PICTURES OF THE BABY
So, some of you have already heard that our file is currently being shown to the birthmother of a little boy. There is no news yet. I'll start with that.
Background - on Sept. 11th, we received a call from one of the social workers (Desiree) at Adoption Options (the agency we are working with to adopt). She explained that there is a baby who was born prematurely whose mother is putting him up for adoption. They wanted to know if we wanted our file to be shown.
RKZ and I spent a lot of time (as much as we had) talking and thinking about all of the ramifications of health and issues that prematurity might mean. (A) there could be many and (B) there could be none. It is tough to make a "what if" decision; But, that was what we needed to make. The next day, we both were at peace that we wanted to be in the pile of families to be considered by the birth mom. Desiree explained that all of the files were to be bussed down from Edmonton (the main office) and that the birth mom would see the files probably on Monday of the next week (Sept. 15). Desiree said to give it a week from there...and so we have.
Yesterday was a week and there is still no word. We decided not to tell anyone as we waited because there is a big chance that we will not be the family chosen. But, we did have to cancel a trip to California (we were supposed to fly out yesterday) and this has led to us explaining to some people what is happening. Once a few people knew, you can imagine that now many people now know; and it didn't seem such a big thing to post it up on the blog. I thought I might want to have the nervousness described on the blog (which is really just turning into a giant family memory album anyway).
Again, we still haven't heard anything. We did hear that the mom had turned down some families, but not ours. We know that we're on a short list of choices, but it's still a list. I think everyone can imagine that - at this point - we just want to know either way.
Choice 1 - she chooses us and we meet her and the baby and confirm that he'll be joining our family - Still a heavy dose of
waiting.
Choice 2 - she says no to us and we have the hope that we're near the top of the list and will be getting a new baby eventually.
Also included in choice #2 is that we can reschedule our California trip and will definitely be heading to Mexico for
American Thanksgiving.
So, now everyone knows who reads the blog. As we are praying people, we are just praying that God's Will is done (or "for the best" in layman's terms). This little guy might be meant for our family and he might not. I am just hoping that I can eat soon and that my stomach would stop turning over. I'd like to be able to sleep for longer than 2 hours and I'd like to stop jumping every time the phone rings. I have never been this anxious in my life. Even RKZ is on edge. And he's never on edge.
So, some of you have already heard that our file is currently being shown to the birthmother of a little boy. There is no news yet. I'll start with that.
Background - on Sept. 11th, we received a call from one of the social workers (Desiree) at Adoption Options (the agency we are working with to adopt). She explained that there is a baby who was born prematurely whose mother is putting him up for adoption. They wanted to know if we wanted our file to be shown.
RKZ and I spent a lot of time (as much as we had) talking and thinking about all of the ramifications of health and issues that prematurity might mean. (A) there could be many and (B) there could be none. It is tough to make a "what if" decision; But, that was what we needed to make. The next day, we both were at peace that we wanted to be in the pile of families to be considered by the birth mom. Desiree explained that all of the files were to be bussed down from Edmonton (the main office) and that the birth mom would see the files probably on Monday of the next week (Sept. 15). Desiree said to give it a week from there...and so we have.
Yesterday was a week and there is still no word. We decided not to tell anyone as we waited because there is a big chance that we will not be the family chosen. But, we did have to cancel a trip to California (we were supposed to fly out yesterday) and this has led to us explaining to some people what is happening. Once a few people knew, you can imagine that now many people now know; and it didn't seem such a big thing to post it up on the blog. I thought I might want to have the nervousness described on the blog (which is really just turning into a giant family memory album anyway).
Again, we still haven't heard anything. We did hear that the mom had turned down some families, but not ours. We know that we're on a short list of choices, but it's still a list. I think everyone can imagine that - at this point - we just want to know either way.
Choice 1 - she chooses us and we meet her and the baby and confirm that he'll be joining our family - Still a heavy dose of
waiting.
Choice 2 - she says no to us and we have the hope that we're near the top of the list and will be getting a new baby eventually.
Also included in choice #2 is that we can reschedule our California trip and will definitely be heading to Mexico for
American Thanksgiving.
So, now everyone knows who reads the blog. As we are praying people, we are just praying that God's Will is done (or "for the best" in layman's terms). This little guy might be meant for our family and he might not. I am just hoping that I can eat soon and that my stomach would stop turning over. I'd like to be able to sleep for longer than 2 hours and I'd like to stop jumping every time the phone rings. I have never been this anxious in my life. Even RKZ is on edge. And he's never on edge.
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